The Little Blue Happy Pill

I'm going to discuss a Taboo Topic - Mental Illness.  I think we all suffer from some sort of mental illness during our lifetime.  For some, it might be a few days or weeks of depression or anxiety.  For others, it can be full blown schizophrenia or bi-polor disorders, etc.  Then there are those people who just suffer anxiety their whole lives.  I think I fall into this category of people - the ones that suffered through anxiety pretty much most of their life. 

I've always been a worrier and anxious person.  In fact, my sister tells me all the time that when God passed out the "worry gene" in the family, He gave it all to me.  I often feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.  I've joked often that if only I could be paid to worry, I'd be the richest person in the world!

About a month ago, I hit "rock-bottom" - after two years of the "what else is going to happen with my son?" it had finally caught up to me.  As mentioned in an earlier post, my son has a rare genetic disorder that has manifested itself in pretty much "adverse medical" ways.  Then he pretty much shut down in eating solids and the struggles and fights in getting him to eat was just wearing me down.  Add insult to injury, my beloved dog, who had been suffering herself with a bum ACL, tore her other ACL and we had to put her down.  The death of the dog just did me in. 

My dear husband and some dear friends - pushed me to see a doctor because they were worried about me.  So I finally conceded and went and the doctor placed me on Zoloft.  I'm not a "drug" taking person and really didn't want to but I can tell you this little blue pill has made a world of difference in me and my life.

The day after  I took the first pill I felt like a totally different person.  The constant anxiety feeling of being on edge totally disappeared.  For the first time in years, I felt I had total control over myself.  I could think clearer, I became a nicer person, and I was just a happier person.

I thank my husband and those friends - without their little push, I'd still be feeling "blahh".